winter break update!

so little update in my life! so its been christmas break this past week and i've been laying around a lot which has been soo nice!! the saddest part of the break has been the lack of boyfriend..he's been in florida this whole time..and he's coming back next week..sniffle..but its ok! he's called me a number of times everyday so its all good :D
so for christmas i got a nice flat iron! a little speaker thingymagig for my ipod that i could take with me to college next year! a few dvds! and have to mention rock band! it was more of a present for the whole family, but ya know. its cool. lol! so yeah! very very good christmas! and um this week i'll be working and possibly going to the human body exhibit and probably practicing my scene with mike and possibly hanging out with my girlies on new years, i'm not sure what i'm doing new years...but yeah ya know. just chilling out :) its been nice and relaxing this winter break!
hope youre all having a good winter break as well!! love and miss you!!

new poem!

so i have written a new poem! i really like it! and i based the poem off of the painting, the kiss, by francesco hayez. beautiful painting! and i found this painting in the great book of italy, which jon gave me for christmas! so thank you jon! :D tehe! well anywho, here's my poem








unforgiven
(after Francesco Hayes, The Kiss)

he to me was none.
left to dead
by the simple wrong word.

come back
and say the right
whisper in my ear
of simple love
make it possible
do the undoable
prove thy mercies
and come to me.
come back
and think the right
and the wrong will
leave my subconscious

sway me with charms
put your hand over my heart
to shut it up in my chest
and take my words
and silence them in my head.
come back
and do the right
come back
and with lips
inspire tears to stay in ducts.

~

so please give me some feedback! let me know how you like it! :D

surprise!

hey! i got my hair cut last friday! and i went to WA the next day and shocked everyone! it was great!! i love my new hair..its so low maintenance! its great :D

well since i'm blogging, i'll tell you about WA! it was the funnest dance ever!! and you wouldn't think so cuz its one of the less significant dances, but i dunno, it was just SOO much fun!!!! we only had three couples in our group; tracey and stu, ashley and case, and me and jon. we went to benihana for dinner. it was soo good! then we went to the dance, which was in the slc library..which was weird cuz it was a high school dance in the library....but it was soo fun! and that building is beautiful! love it! and then afterwards we went to tracey's house and ate junk food and played guitar hero. lol! it was quite entertaining! :D and jon is such a fun date!! i kinda like him..just a little.. ;) lol! but yeah! so fun stuff!

maida's poetic!

so i'm in financial lit..bored again..lol! anywho. i've been writing poems for my creative writing class and i thought i'd write some! i cant do all the cool line breaks though..cuz this computer is lame and won't let me indent..oh well. here's some of the poems i've been working on!

grunge and grace

slouching. cringing. grunge.
casting a spell
with hell-fire
deep set in your eyes
shooting burns. leaving
us
cold.

subtle
calm
grace. singing
sweet
apologies. then
fluttering away
politely forgiving
never
forgetting.

~

forgiveness Tames

please
Humble the Lion
stalking the Sinner
a smile rejected
frosting the rose
shatter
the Heart
Breaks
the soul

Alone
in the Den
angry Snarls
drooling
creeping forward
Open mouths
shut.

~

angels deserve angels

empty and misty
walk through a
crowd and find
the one
lost and burning
stand still in a
running circling
moving world

stop

from the background
a light
a heart
a smile
gave the broken
another try
like an angel
to a sinner
an undeserving life
turned around

~

sick day

no! no! no! no!
i can't! DO it anymore!!
i won't!
no!
won't pretend
won't pretend
can't pretend...


no

i'm sick
dying
For attention!
sick
begging
pleading...
look at me!!

Look! at me!!


i'm dead and no one cares.?.
no.
can't do it anymore...
won't pretend.

~
so there's some poems! let me know what you think!

Merry Christmas, love Maida and Jon

Send your own ElfYourself eCards

bored in school..

so i am currently sitting in my first period and we're just reading a chapter from the text book.. boring.. so i thought i'd write! lol!
soo..all thats really new is i'm in productions which is cool. we just had auditions for our one act comedy, the rules of comedy, and i'm really excited to see the cast list! i'm nervous too..i would really like to get a part..cuz its my senior year and all..and it would be SOO fun to play the dramaturg in the show!! hilarious part! oh man.. but yeah i'll keep you posted.
i'm also getting ready for UTA (utah theater association) auditions. a bunch of colleges will be there and seniors get to audition for them for scholarships! i have my audition ready for the most part, just need to work on a few things research some stuff..but i feel pretty confident about it! and i'm not too worried cuz i do already have a scholarship to suu, but if i coud get any additional scholarships that would be oh soo helpful! so..yeah!
oh and i'm gearing up for the ACT on saturday. i'm nervous about it.. i hear the math portion is hard..which is no good cuz i SUCK at math!! i'm not worried about the rest of it. i love english and science, but math....*gulp*
also on saturday its the WA (women's association) dance and i will be taking jon! he is soo sweet! i really like him.. :D and i spend as much time with him as i can! ya know, when i'm not working or doing theater stuff.. ;)
oh! and my schedule this tri is ridiculously easy, which therefore makes it boring. which is one reason i'm posting now instead of reading a textbook.. the class i'm in now is financial literacy, and my teacher is a computer technology teacher NOT financial lit teacher..she doesnt know math or anything included in finance..its great..and second is child care. i'm not the biggest fan of the teacher..and we dont get the kids till after winter break..so that class is a blur too! then third is ballroom and i really enjoy that class! and fourth is creative writing, love! then fifth is theater! easiest classes ever. i really do like my classes! but i just dont have homework ever and the day goes by slow and i hardly do anything and..yeah..
i've ran out of things to say..and the class period isnt even half way over.. bleh.. lol!

happy thanksgiving!!

happy thanksgiving everyone!! hope youre having a great day!!
i just want to take this time to say thank you everyone for being so great!! i know i maybe havent been the greatest person sometimes..and we all make mistakes and i just hope that you could forgive me for mine..no matter how big or small they are.. i will try harder to be a better person. but i just want to thank everyone for being such good friends! i am truely grateful for you and all the good you bring into my life! thank you everyone!! sooo much love!!! xoxo!!

the plays in maida's life..

ok, so its been a really long time since i've posted, so you'd think i've got so much to post about. but really i've been doing the same thing forever so.. not too much to write about but i need to inform people of what i'm doing anyway!
so grease, rehearsals have been going late into the night. i havent been getting home til 930 every night rehearsing this freaking play.. its just that time where rehearsal is more for the techies and the actors need an audience.. yeah.. but the play opens in two weeks! and we start selling tickets to the public on monday the 3rd, so please contact me if youre interested in tickets! i hope you all are cuz its gonna be a really cute show.
tickets are 7$ in advance, but if you get a group of 10 tickets are 6$. they are 8$ at the door.
the show runs the 13, 14, 15, and 17. there will be a matinee on the 15.
the show will just be at my school, Brighton High School on bengal blv
if you have any questions please ask me :)
we will also be featured on channels 2 and 13 on november 10! so please watch the morning news that day and you'll see some grease!

then also i was chosen to be a director in my theater class for our directing unit. my play is called the empty chair. its about these kids in group therapy for substance abuse for ages 14-18. before the play started a kid in this group died of an overdose of drugs, and the play is about how his death impacted these young recovering substance abusers. its a very intense play! i love it! and i have a very good hard working cast. its a great learning experience for me. i'm not sure the specific day my play will be performing, but it'll either be on the 17, 18, or 19. i'll give more information if youre interested in watching it.

and thats pretty much maida's life as of now til the plays are over! again please let me know if you want tickets for grease and/or info on empty chair. thanks!

best weekend ever!!

ok so as you know i was in cedar city this weekend for shakespeare competition. i have gone all three years and it certainly ended with a bang!
day one, thursday oct2
we left for cedar city at 730 in the morning. we reached cedar city for lunch at about 1130 and had all you can eat pizza at the pizza factory. then we went and saw moonlight and magnolias at the randall theater. it was a comedy about the writing of the script of gone with the wind. hilarious! then we rehearsed our ensemble play, richard iii, at the adams theater (the theater resembling shakespeare's globe). we were going to compete on this stage and we were so excited!....until they told us that there was a 5 by 5 green square in the middle of the stage that was a trap door that we could not touch and white pillars everywhere that we could not touch. if we touched these things, we would be disqualified. we were distraught. we rehearsed trying to follow the rules and it was the worst run we ever did. it was a very scary moment for us..
then we stopped by our hotel to relaxe for an hour before we went to our second play at the randall theater, gaslight. it was a victorian thriller that kept us on the edge of our seats! it was so good! very well acted. i have a new dream role..a new crazy lady..they're the best..
day two, friday oct3
this was the day that our indiviual events would compete, as in my monologue as queen margarete. my first round didnt start until 445, so until then we; me and the other ie people, saw ensemble scenes from other divisions, ate, looked around the stores in the student center, and supported our techies in the tech olympics. then it was time for my first round. half of my class was in the room to support me. i was the third person to go and i felt very confident about it. after everyone had gone, our judge went through to give us critiques. my only negative comment was i should give the audience a chance to breathe i was so intense the whole time. second round my teacher was there to support me, i went third. every other girl that went in this round played cleopatra. i felt very confident about this round as well. my only negative comment was i should give the audience a chance to breathe. my third round i had the other half of my class there to support me. i went third. this judge was short and bubbly and she said her most recent scene was my scene and she played margarete as well. no pressure. even though she had a couple more negative notes for me, because she had just played my part, she gave me the most positive notes. overall i felt so good about my rounds and i felt i was good enough to place.
day three, saturday oct4
this was the day that we competed our ensemble scenes and at the very end of the day the awards assembly. now we had the whole problem with the adams theater and our ensemble scene..but like an answer to a prayer it rained all that day and we performed in the centrum. we had a good warm up and got up to perform, we were good and focused, and we performed very well. we felt good about it. then we went to support our dance company, who was performing with sonnet 50. they did a beautiful job. afterward we went to the buses and changed out of our costumes and watched other people's ensemble scenes. then we recieved the news that our ensemble scene, my dear friend madeline's monologue, and my monologue were chosen to showcase to everyone at the assembly before the awards assembly. this means that at least one of the three judges thought our piece was unique and well acted and wanted everyone else to see it. this however doesnt mean we placed, just means the judges liked us. the showcase went very well, each one of us got a big applause. my voice cracked during my monologue..but i covered it so its all good. we had dinner then it was time for the awards assembly..
it started off with more pieces chosen to showcase, then a slide show. then the tech awards, we didnt recieve any from tech. then dance, we recieved second place for ensemble and for duo/trio. then they introduced the new catagory, visual art. we didnt turn in any so..no awards for that catagory. then acting.. brighton is in the oxford division so we had to wait while they went through other divisions. then oxford. the first thing they announced were monologues. i knew i was good enough to place so i was extremely nervous.. third place was from a different school.. second place was my friend madeline! i was so excited for her. and i thought since i wasnt third or second, that i just didnt place. i didnt want to consider first.. then after madeline's name was called, brighton stayed standing, and they turned to me, like they knew already. i just told them no and to sit back down.... then i heard, "first place mono act, oxford division, maida wadsworth." screams filled my ears, tears blurred my vision, and i couldnt believe it. it still feels like a dream. and i was in the middle of the row, so i had to get through my screaming classmates and make my way down the stairs to recieve my award. i grabbed my trophy and my certificate and a different certificate saying suu scholarship. i gave them my information and walked back up to my class. my friends chance and margot got third for their scene from much ado about nothing, and madeline also got the best junior award and she has the opportunity to go to an actors program at suu. we won first place ensemble, and first place sweepstakes. it was such a great year!!

shakespeare competition

alrighty, so in my last update i was working on auditioning for shakespeare competition, and we found out all about it a few days ago! i will be competing my monologue, richard III, act 4 scene 4, i will be playing margaret! im very excited! so i thought i'd share the good news!
and next week, octorber 1st, i will be performing during the day. i'll give times so if youre able to make it you could come see me! and then after i come back from cedar city i'll let you know how it all goes!

im quirky

alrighty..i got tagged for quirks..so here i go

1. i hate feet. i know what youre thinking..everyone hates feet! thats not new! no i dont mind when i touch other people's feet, but when people touch me with their feet, i want to chop their feet off. i just dont like it.
2. i have a hard time with eye contact only when i am telling a long story to people. i keep very good eye contact while other people are talking, but when i say something important back, i just cant look at them in the eye.
3. im 17 and i dont have my drivers license yet.
4. when i eat a reeses peanut butter cup, i eat all the chocolate first, then i roll the peanut butter into a ball and eat it little by little.
5. i am deathly afraid of werewolves. yet i love dogs....
6. from age 0 to 10 i was extremely girly and i would wear nothing but dresses. from ages 10 to 15 i was a tomboy and i would never wear dresses in exception to church.

remembering and understanding

i was ten during 9/11, and i remember every minute of that day. i was in 5th grade and i remember getting up for school and the tv was on and i saw the towers on fire. i didnt quite understand what was going on and the seriousness of it. i remember that i was having friend problems an i wanted to fit in with the popular girls, and that was all that was important to me at the time. then i remember going to school and watching the news most of the day. i remember my teacher crying and other teachers coming in the classroom in tears. i saw the clip of the towers falling so many times and it still get into my head what it meant. people explained it to me but i still didnt understand. i remember that the next day when we delivered the paper there was a big picture of the burning towers and my mom crying. i remember my teacher making us write papers on what happened and draw pictures and my picture was chosen to be published in this school paper about the events. with all that happened i didnt understand, i still dont fully understand. i dont think anyone does. i remember the thoughts and feelings that i felt after they had a more concrete number of deaths. i remember feeling sad and guilty and feeling i'd never understand the feelings going through those peoples families. i remember.. i'll always remember

grease is the word!

alrighty, small little update in the life of maida.
i've been a tad stressed lately, cuz of school and shakespeare and grease and seeing bryson once a week when i used to see him almost every other day and my two very good friends are going out so i've been the third wheel for some time.. but putting that aside, life is good.
so for my theater class we're doing Richard III for our ensemble scene and we're doing it in a 40's/nazi theme. it's really cool!! and it's kinda funny because i'm taking an american problems class and our first simulation is about totalitarian society.. so fun filled months ahead for me! and then also in my theater class we've got our individual scenes, and i'm doing a scene from Richard..again..(i did a scene from Richard last year too. and then thats our ensemble scene too..i guess i was meant to do this play..), and i'll be playing Queen Margaret. it's some intense stuff in our scene! i'm really excited! we might even go down to cedar city to compete :D
i am also in the fall musical. grease!! even though i'm not a fan of the story and the play itself, this show is SO much fun to be apart of! and i'll be playing the very first LuLu the pink lady!! Ati, my drama teacher, decided to add a new pink lady and i have the privilege of playing her! MY FIRST LEAD IN A MUSICAL!! its been such a blast! we're performing in november, fyi. i'll give more details when its closer.

i'm a princess too!

You Are Jasmine!

Independent and adventurous. You don't want much; just to break out of the guilded cage society has put you in and experience life to the fullest. Following orders isn't really one of your strong points, and you would rather live a life of poverty than being forced into something that you hate.

Which Disney Princess Are You?

small update

alrighty so for the past little while i've just been getting ready for school and seeing a couple of shows and spending as much time as i can with my boyfriend as i can..
so i saw footloose at the egytian last saturday and i'll be seeing it again tonight. now this was the footloose that i was in but dropped out of. and to be quite frank, the show was just ok. i'm glad i dropped it. pace was slow and energy was low. but it was nice to go to the show and afterward see all the cast and hear that they missed me. cuz that was one of my complaints being in the show was i didnt feel accepted. i'm sure a few of the people said that just to be nice, but i can tell when someone is being sincere. it was nice to feel loved. and it still had its strengths! my friends did well.
i also saw south pacific preview night and last night. its such a cute show! i mean i'm not a fan of the storyline and the dialogue but the music is beautiful and classic. and it was nice to go with bryson. he has the same view on the old musicals as i do. and we both agreed he'd be a good billis. yeah, random observance, my dad and bryson could play the same roles. its pretty funny! they have the same vocal talent, same amazing character work, and they both have cute pot bellies. the only difference is my dads 6'2 and bryson is like 5'7ish. but yeah..
speaking of bryson, on saturday he is moving to odgen and on monday he'll be attending weber state university studying theater and zoology. so i will be here as a lonely senior and he'll be there as a lonely freshman. i don't like thinking about saturday, but i have hope things will work out the way it should.
so as i mentioned, i'm a senior this year. i got my schedule the other day and today i went and got my senior picture. its a little surreal. i dont feel like a senior at all. i mean i'm super excited!, but its just so weird.. i really dont think that it'll sink in and i'll get used to it.. so so very bizarre..

john mccoy story

well alrighty, even though i've only gotten one vote on my poll and theres a few more days left.. i'm just gonna go ahead and post the first part of my story! just for a small introduction on it, its a short story about moving on and finding ourself. its sad, sweet, and romantic. this beginning part of the story is the only really scary part of it, so when you read it and think, oh my gosh! this story is so sad and scary! its only that way at the very beginning. i'd love to have your comments and critiques!

*link to maida's story's blog -
www.johnmccoystory.blogspot.com*

oh and i'd like your help in picking a title for my short story! cuz i have no idea what to call it.. for the mean time, i'm just calling john mccoy story, thats the main character's name. so if you think of something good, i'd like to hear your suggestions!

two small random thoughts of the day

alrighty, two things on my mind today..

1. R.I.P. Bernie Mac. love that guy! so sad..

2. i've been watching the olympics and my new favorite thing to watch is the synchronized diving. have you watched it before?? its freakin amazing!! i mean how??..eh??..i just dont know how its possible!! its so cool!!

creativity..maybe

i've just been working and i love my job! next week i'm gonna be working four days a week! i won't know what to do with all that money..tehe! i'm so excited!!
so i'm somewhat of an artist and a writer. only somewhat. and i started sketching yesterday and i started painting it. im about halfway done, i'll have to take a picture or something when im done. and i got a story idea off it too! when i get to a good stopping point maybe i'll post it and get some critiques from you guys or something. so uh yeah.. thats about it. lol

happy! happy! happy!

i apologize for not writing the past few days. just i've been so busy. but now i have something to talk about!!

so we'll start with thursday. i got a haircut!! its a little off the shoulder! i love it! its a nice new change.

friday was my birthday! i am now 17!! woo!! i had a fun day with the girls! which was really refreshing since i usually hang out with boys..plus my very best friend tanya. but friday was nice cuz i with with the girls doing girly stuff i usually dont do! we spent a good deal of the day at the mall. i got a new outfit! yay! and then after we had pizza and coke and homemade shakes and watched the wedding singer! it was a fun day!

saturday was my first day of work at noodles! i really enjoy my job! im very proud to say i work there! its a great restaurant! and my job is so easy too! i just love it!

today is jessi's birthday! i adore my sister! always have! and today we went up to our aunt wendy's house for strawberry waffles and eggs. it was nice to see everyone! but i was just so tired..i had a long weekend! but its nice to have a full weekend with loved ones! i had a great birthday! thanks everyone!!

rAnDoM

so.................

i'm bored.

i started work today and i'm very excited to work more! i really like my manager, i really like the very nice people and i love the environment and i'm just so excited!
my seventeenth birthday is on friday! i'm gonna do something small with a couple of my friends. it'll be nice. and bryson is out of town and i miss him..and he wont be in town on my birthday..so sad..but he'll be back on jessi's birthday! and we're going on a date next week so it's all good.
i am SO EXCITED for heroes in september!!!! i'm FREAKING OUT!!!!!! best. show. EVER.
so i am currently reading a book by sarah vowell called take the cannoli. its so witty and clever! i encourage everyone to read it when they get the chance for some good personal essays.
so my theater teacher has facebook and i've been asking her about the projects we will be doing at the beginning of the school year. in our theater 3 class we go down to the shakespearefestival in cedar city and we compete with other high schools. i've gone down for the past couple of years and every year we have won first place ensemble scene. and also our teacher chooses two scenes and three monologues to go down and last year i went down with bryson and we did a scene from richard III, i played queen elizabeth and he played richard. this year our ensemble scene will be richard III and i will be doing another scene from richard III. i dont know yet what part i am, but i'm very excited to be doing the scene with two very talented girls. and i guess i was meant to be in richard III.. if i play queen elizabeth again i will just laugh.. i'll be sure to post it once i find out.
also next year we will be doing grease for our fall musical. i was cast as an extra pink lady. which means i still get to have the opportunity to be apart of the pink ladies, but i get to develop my own character. i'm so excited!

and thats the random life of maida......

ledgend

so i have seen the dark knight twice now, and heath ledger is my favorite actor. he is the most talented actor! i deeply respect him. and today i was flipping through the tv and i turned it to brothers grimm, not that i particularly like the movie..just heath ledger was in it. to see heath as the twisted joker then see him as a kindhearted story writer i was just captivated by him. he becomes his character! he changes his mannerisms and his speech and he no longer is heath, he becomes the joker or jake grimm. and as an actress, i will always respect and admire heath ledger's talent. he is a true actor. rest in peace.

3 is a magic number

so i've finally got a summer job!..now that the summer's half over..
i now work at noodles & company on fort union! woo!! so how i got this job is a very funny story..
so today i was just going around getting applications hoping that i might be able to get a job for the rest of summer and for the school year. and i had only gotten two applications and i went to get my third at noodles. i walked in and asked for an application and they said to go online and i was about to walk out when the manager said well what're you doing later today at 330? we could interview you if youre free. of course i said yes! and when i got there we had the interview and it was just a regular interview, and when i was done they said well we've got a position for you, orientation's next week. . . so yeah! it was awesome!

Take the Quiz here!

i'm insane.

so i was thinking about why i let all the drama in footloose get to me and i figured it out! i havent had a break from theater in over a year.. last year in march i was in the ensemble for bye bye birdie, then after that i was director's assistant/stage manager for importance of being earnest, then i was in brigadoon, then school started and i did anything goes, shakespeare, check please, and the musical review, then i was stage manager for bye bye birdie, and i was about to do footloose.... no wonder i'm exhausted!! how crazy is that?? my dad's had a break since i've last had one..thats a definite sign that its time to take a break! so i'm officially as insane as my dad..

cut footloose..

for the past couple of weeks i have been rehearsing for footloose at the egyptian theater in park city. i came into in expecting it to be a great experience and a taste of professional theater. but today is my last rehearsal. i was very surprised by how unorganized everything is and how in exception of a few people, everyone was rude to each other. i dont know if it was just everyone in the cast are divas or just personalities clashed, but i just wasnt having fun. especially since i went into this with the intention of having a fun positive experience, i dont want to deal with drama. especially three weeks in! so i've dropped footloose. i know you were all expecting to go see me in it but i've got so many other important things to do this summer than a play. but if you know austin smith or any of the brighton kids in it i encourage you to see it! it'll still be a cute show. not the best, but cute. :)