right now..

its hard to blog when you dont have internet..
i'm now living in millcreek with brendan. have been for the past five months. i turned 19 last month. got a tattoo. got an extra piercing. got a new cna job. i feel like a real adult. and yet i still go home to mom at least once a week for laundry.. greeting her with the song from dr horrible's sing along blog.. "laundry day. see you there. under things tumbling.."
i have yet to figure out exactly what i want to do with the rest of my life..
i have now figured out to a T but i dont want to be a cna for the rest of my life.. i dont even know what i'm going to do two months from now..
taking things one step at a time.

haven't had a whole lot of poetic thoughts in my head lately but i have written one that i'm proud of
its untitled

and i made that choice
gave it all up
for you my love
i chose to love you
chose to live for you
and now i stand
on middle ground
a thin place to dance
tip toeing through this dark
a light to follow or
a light to ignore
no obligation
nothing holding me back
only you my love
i'll hold onto you
and dream of that light
that i blew out
the choice i made
all for you my love
live in this silence
die in this darkness