i'm still in love with judas baby..

listening to lady gaga's new single, judas, inspired this poem. thank you lady gaga ;P

'i'm just a holy fool, oh baby its so cruel
i'm still in love with judas, baby"
well, judas still loves you too!


~brother

dear lord
i'm sorry my brother
i dont know what happened
i feel like i've awaken from a curse
i am such a traitor
things came to light from my blinding dark night
after i kissed you
and told you brother
master i loved you
my kiss was death and i knew it
i know i was chosen to be royalty
but you king of kings
overshadow me
i was engulfed in deadly sins
like they were phases of grief
my grief was greed
the power you gave me was
intoxicating
and i couldnt get enough
lustful glutanous slothfulness
it gave me a high
but brother your goodness
provided faith to a people
who didnt know the meaning of it
your golden halo
sobered my high and my pride rised
i slowly became more defiant
to father's binding
his religion
a masking piece
a buckler to the blows
of the worlds ardors
the earth its posessions
the things i fell in love with
my pride turned my zeal into renegade
and just like that i became
the devils advocate
wrath burned in my throat
after you called me black sheep
i was just so envious of you brother
and that's just it
i wanted to be you brother
isnt that what you teach
to be christ like
but you set such an example
son of god
how do any of us mortals compare
as god's son father graced you
with a mafic finger
setting sweet spells
on the blind the deaf the dead
the magic finger of your father
and the angelic face of your virgin mother
i was not graced with your spirit brother
how can i be christ like
without your christ like powers
the deadly temptations offered refuge
they conviced me
if you yourself can't have the revelation
remove the teacher
gain some profit
brother the deadly sin
looked so friendly
they even asked me to seal my sin with a kiss
your cheek was so warm
the corners of your lips
were turned into a knowing smile
an accepting smile
my lips were scorched underneath
your godly skin
my filthy soul burned
as it was ripped off my lips
like you stripped me my mask of transgression
no one could know the guilt
all that was left of my being
except for maybe you brother
you bled for my guilt
from the pores i touched with my lips
because of me right now you are
bleeding again
bleeding because of me
bleeding for me
as you hang on your cross
i will hang my head
around this noose i made with my pain
i will step off this edge
and hang for you
i'm sorry brother
i love you brother
in your name
amen