what i've learned

i have just moved back home. my part time job wasn't enough to pay for all my bills, and i need to build up my savings account again, so i can go to school in the fall. so no big deal its just a temporary thing. but i was thinking back to this past year and i realized how much i have gone threw this year. so i though i would share the 5 top things that i have learned from the year i spent out of my parents house..
1. DON'T MOVE OUT WITH A NEW BOYFRIEND. that is definitely the number one thing i have learned. we had only known each other a couple of weeks before we decided to get an apartment. i didnt know him. i thought he was someone completely different from the guy that i grew to know over the time we spent together those first six months of living in that apartment. and even then i didnt really know him.. but that was the problem with the particular person i was with and that is beside the point. if you want to move in with your significant other, the advice i would give you, coming from someone who was in that position, wait until you are at lease engaged. moving in together is such a huge commitment and it really is that step before the big lifetime commitment.. maybe i'm just preaching to the choir and i'm just thick headed and needed to see it for myself, but i'm not sure who reads this blog and this is a post of what i learned so there ya go!
2. save up! save up! save up! if i didnt have a good amount in my savings account i would have to have moved out a lot sooner after. i was basically living on that safety net after i lost my job and if i didnt save i really would have been screwed. you never know when you are going to need that safety net!!!!
3. make your place your own. the short period of time after i had kicked my ex out i hated living in my empty apartment. all it was was a reminder of my pain and all the mistakes i made and i had never felt so alone. then i had made a decision to change the look of my apartment. i painted my bedroom green, i got a purple curtain and i switched things around in the living room and the place really became my place and i made it a home and it was then i realized how important it was to have a place you can call home, a place you can escape and have alone time and feel comfortable and at peace.
4. living in the same apartment as a place you originally got with an ex is bad karma. i lost my job, had some bad luck with dating, and got medical problems the last six months i was living at the apartment. its just bad juju.
5. living alone is lonely. supporting yourself is difficult. finding roommates you know you could live with are rare. being an adult is hard. but this past year has given me an opportunity know what to expect and how to budget and how to prepare for the end of the summer when i try living out of the house a second time. wish me luck. hopefully i did learn something....

i'll miss my crappy little apartment

overshadowed

this year so far.. i have had so many ups and downs already its kind of insane.
let me start at the beginning..

january 3, i got a job at a physical therapist office as an office aide. its not exactly the hours i need, but i think it is the perfect little job for me right now. i truely believe that everthing happens for a reason, and that includes this job. ever since i've been working at the pt office i have fallen in love with physical therapy. so much that i have made the decision to become a physical therapist. i change my mind about my career choice all the time, but this time i feel confident about this choice. this fall i will be going to slcc and doing the pt assistant program.
january 5, i went on a date with an old friend, ian. we met last year, i was dating a different guy in his group of friends, and while being introduced to the group, i remembered ian as the cute sweet smaller guy of the nerd herd who obviously had a little crush on me. a year later we bump into each other at a w.o.w. party (my bestie's dad was hosting this party and we were hanging out at her house, i wasnt actually playing the game lol just thought i'd clarify :P) and i'm sure he felt it to, there was a little spark, something clicked in this reunion. so then he gave me his number, we went on a nice date that lead to another date.. and the rest is history ;) i am so very happy with this guy.. he is very sweet and genuine, treats me so well. i am so very lucky to have ian in my life <3
january 10(?), i discovered sores on the underside of my right arm. i had my mom look at them and we came to the conclusion that they are more than likely boils. so i went to the doctor's office and the first doc i saw thought it was the same thing. so she lanced the big one and had it packed, then had me put on two different antibiotics to rid of the three other smaller ones and also to prevent them from coming back. well, one of the antibiotics that she gave me was a penicillin base. some years ago i got an allergic reaction to amoxicillin, another penicillin base, and after almost a week of taking this antibiotic she gave me i broke out into a rash all over my body. so i went to a different doc who put me on more antibiotics and strong allergy meds to stop the reaction. while i was seeing this doc he continued to tell me other things that the first doc did wrong, including taking a culture of my wound (taking a sample of the pus from the sores) to see if it was something a little more serious, like mrsa.
off tangent- mrsa is a staff infection on crack. basically. its a bacterial infection that can be small and minor, like my sore on my arm, or much more serious and can involve the heart or lungs or other organs. but like any bacterial infection, it can spread and become serious very quickly without attention. as a cna i have cared for people with mrsa, and it can get big ugly and nasty and involves iv treatments and/or lots of serious antibiotics. if untreated, it could lead to long term hospital stay and other bad things.. since i have seen some worst case sinarios, when the doc said that it could be mrsa i thought there would be no way that it was..
february, the sores came back. i was very unhappy.. i went to see the same doc that fixed the allergic reaction. he took a culture of my wound. as it turns out, i have mrsa. fantastic right? so he gave me some more antibiotics to hopefully get rid of the mrsa to prevent me from going into the hospital. he first put me on sulfa, and as it turns out i am also allergic to sulfa! so! i had to take even more meds for the allergic reaction! and now i am still hoping that the infection is under enough control that, 1- it doesnt get bigger, and 2- it doesnt go to other places of my body, like my internal organs, 3- it just goes away.. prayers are always appreciated :)
now, amidst the awesome boyfriend, fun job, and living off of the pharmacy in my purse, i havent been able to pay for my rent. my lease is up after this month, so luckily i got my tax return in time to pay for my last month of rent. and the end of this month i am moving back into my parents house. after much debating and looking at all the other options that i have, i saw this option as the smartest and the most efficient. i will be getting a second job for the summer and i'll be building up my savings account once again. and besides, it has been nice spending more time with the family. and hopefully by the end of the summer i'll be getting a place with my bestie, tanya, and one other chicky. so there is my game plan.. hopefully the medical nonsense will end and i wont have any other problems. hopefully thing will go at least close to plan.
even though there have been these major speed bumps these past couple months..
the highs in my life have completely overshadowed the lows
positive energy, good vibes, and prayers are always welcomed, loved, and appreciated <3