its love not santa clause

looking forward and depending on people being in your future isn't smart. its best to plan your future. just yours. if someone wants to come along for the ride then wonderful. but until they have made that final vow to always follow you then dont get your hopes up. keep the walls around your heart until he's down on one knee and youre ready to say yes. be careful love sick ladies. no matter what age heartbreak hurts and doesnt fully go away until that love is put in a different direction.
sigh.. ok my rant is done! since i'm a positive person and hate ending an update on a negative note, here are my current inspirations.

cameren cloward. he is like my soul's twin. its scary how alike we are. he's very sweet and sensitive and easy to talk to and easy to listen to and i could go on and on how great my new best friend is but just know he's a great guy ;)


say anything. cam introduced me to this band and i fell in love. favorite song at the moment is do better.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qHKZK6tZiEU&feature=related

the perks of being a wallflower. cam suggested this book to me and, again, i fell in love. i highly suggest this book to everyone. its sad its sweet its funny its beautiful its poetic its honest its brutal its raw its..its infinite. just read it! gah! i love it..

nurse jackie. cam and i sat down and watched almost the whole first season in one sitting. fell. in. love. its on showtime its about an emergency room nurse with an addiction to prescription drugs. how beautifully ironic is that?? and its just so real and makes me want to become a nurse even more than i already do. although not an emergency room nurse. no way in hell could i ever do that..i'd be like the character zoe and be awkward and clumsy and just doesnt handle the stress well. but a lot of the work is the same. a nurse is a nurse. i love it. i highly suggest this wonderful show. i'm so very excited for the second season in march!

favorite quotes:
"we accept the love we think we deserve" -the perks of being a wallflower
"in that moment i swear we were infinite" -the perks of being a wallflower (read it)
"doctors diagnose, we heal" -nurse jackie
"its love not santa clause" -500 days of summer
"someone to live for, something to lose"
"if you cant change your fate, change your attitude"