feeling better

so you know how i was all stressed out in first period? well then in second i cried for half of the period.. it finally reached its breaking point and i spilled! i still got my assignment done and such but ya know.. it was just sad cuz so many people went up to me and asked if everythings alright. they thought someone died or something! i mean i was crying for literally half the class period! but i told them i was fine and that i was actually feeling better. and the rest of the day after that was just fine and dandy and completely normal like i had never had that little half and hour of crying part of my day. so just letting people know that i'm doing better and all is well.
oh! another thing, referring to my advice on college blog, i have made my decision and i feel that it is the right decision for many reasons.. i will be staying here and working for a year. i have so many theater learning opportunities here and i have a good job that has good promotion opportunities here and i can stay at home or live with friends here and i can focus on my goal (ucmt) and slowly progress to adulthood and feel more confident about it all rather than jumping the gun and going over my head. i simply just feel better about staying here. so! there ya go. oh! and i wrote a poem about my overload in creative writing today! here it is..

~congestion

i'm sick
stuffed up
mucus
stress
wanna scream and
let it all go
away

eyes puffed and
filled with
blood
worry

nose running and
filled with
snot
anger

ears plugged and
filled with
fluid
white noise

thoat scratched and
filled with
damage
cries

mind congested and
filled with
running
thoughts
thoughts
running
away from me
scared
stuffed
up
stiff

i'm sick
sick of
damaged cries
fluid white noise
snot anger
bloody worry
mucus stress
sick.