to play? or to work? or stress myself out and do both?

so heres the present dilemma.. right now i'm in seussical at the sandy amphitheater. but i have to work more this summer so that i can be able to move into an apartment with my friend tanya in september. now heres the problem, i depended on being able to get shifts during the day..but noodles & company only has hours open at night.. and work is much more important to me than doing seussical.. and i deceded to do the show so that i can be with my family i had to be talked into coming to the call backs..i think i could do some backstage work..i just need to set my priorities.. my parents suggested looking at getting another job in addition to noodles, but i wont do that..cuz i'd only be there for a couple of months and its been hard to find a job lately anyways..and i like my job now and i'd rather work more with what i've got.. and i need to work! i need to be able to move out in september! and save up money for college and i need to get on my feet and that doesnt involve theater sucking up all my time.. i do feel bad i hate backing out of something last minute..i shouldnt have depended on getting all these shifts..i should have been smarter about my decision and thought ahead.. i feel really bad.. i do.. but i gotta do what i gotta do.. sigh.. these adult decisions and taking responsibilities for my actions and my choices and such sucks..

viva vacation

its been a while since i've blogged..cuz nothing new and exciting was happening.. but! i just got back home from vacation in vegas! woo something new to blog about!
so we left early early in the morning on wednesday (when i say early i mean we woke up at 4 am..) and we started the drive! we first went to bryce canyon. i had never gone so it was fun and new! i absolutely loved it!! at one time in my life i wanted to be a geologist so the rocks and everything about them; color, texture, form, ect..just fasinated me! and i was feeling adventurous that day so i did lots of climbing in steep places and going to the edge and looking down and other such things that gave my mom a heart attack. it was soo much fun!! ;D then we slept in the car, woke up in cedar city and had a picnic in the suu campus.
we got to las vegas from between 5-6 (there was a time change somewhere in there so i'm not completely sure..) and vegas was nice and hot! we got there, went out to eat, looked around circus circus, got our rooms (mom dad and jessi were in one room, me russell and kira were in another, we were about five rooms apart) and went to sleep. it was soo nice! cuz i got to sleep on my own bed..it was awesome!
side note: i hate vegas. i mean there is all sorts of fun stuff to do there! as i will mention in the next paragraph.. but there are only so many places you can go and not feel uncomfortable be all the unnecissary smut that covers the city..for a girl with morals and an actual sense of character and genuine beauty..i hate the porn and people who love the porn..i mean seriously?? its just disgusting! girls, get a REAL job. boys (yes they are boys, not men), get a life, grow some balls, get some morals, and maybe get the real thing if you deserve it after you get a life, balls, and morals. and you know, the majority of the people in vegas are so mean! ya know i love going on vacation, but i wont miss the smut and rude people..
so anyways! the next day we went around the strip and did all sorts of stuff in the morning, early afternoon. we looked around the venitian, which looks like italy! and i would like to go there someday..so i loved loved LOVED the venitian and the canal they had through the hotel, with the gondola, the sistine chapel replica, and we shared a tiramasu. loved it!!
its tradition everytime we pass through or stop in vegas we go to the coke and m&m museum. and when we go to the coke museum we always take a family picture with the coke bear. this year, they got rid of the statue thing..and its alive..guy in a suit.. ya know it was cool. and its kinda sad cuz it'll probably be the last time i go to vegas with my family as one of the kids living at home so..yeah..
and then we spent the rest of the day in the adventure dome! part of circus circus.. it was fun! i love a good rollercoaster :)
yesterday we drove straight home..slept a lot in the car..and when we got back we went out to eat and saw up in 3d. if any of you havent had a chance to see that, see it now! i absolutely love that movie..its so sweet..
and now i'm chilling out at home! tonight i'm gonna go out with my wonderful boyfriend! we do the silly month anniversary thing..and we're kinda cheating..cuz we went out for 5 months, were broken up for a month, and now we've been together for another month, we decided not to ignore the first 5 months, so its out 6 month today..really its just an excuse to go on a nice date :)
so..starting next week, since vacation is over, and after the date tonight, its time to focus on everything else i need to do this summer. time to focus on seussical, on getting a drivers lisence, and working more to get money for college and an apartment in september. woo..